Sometimes .....

Sometimes ..... Sometimes there is so much that you have to talk about ... So much that you have that you want to share ...So much that if you are unable to tell someone you feel like you will burst .... So much, that at the same time if you do not tell someone it will eat you up from inside, make you feel inadequate, like you have no control over your emotions ......

Sometimes, all you want is for someone to understand, someone to listen ... Anyone with some time ......

There is a river raging inside you, like a dam ready to burst ... And all you can do to not show it is bottle it up .....

There is so much that you need to talk about right now .. So much that you need to share ... But, you can't ... It might not be the right time ...... It may not be the right place ......
They might not have the time or the energy to listen ...Everyone has problems of their own .... How can you dump on them ?

You wish you could have a conversation with God .... He would listen ..... Maybe he is one's true friend ...
One's best friend .....
One's only friend ........

It's that day of the year again .......

Well .... It is Valentine's Day again .... Somehow this day always makes me think a lot ... And I mean a LOT lot ....
Thoughts that plague my mind include
(i) It is a marketing stunt
(ii) It is a money making racket
(iii) Is my pessimism because grapes are sour ?
(iv) Wouldn't it be better if one were single on such a day ...... ?

Let me elaborate .....

Frankly, points one and two can be clubbed together .... YES it is a marketing stunt -a money making racket .. I mean, who needs ONE day in a year to express their love to someone ? Why not do it on that person's birthday ? Why not on 1st Jan ? Why Valentine's Day ?? What makes Feb 14th extra special ? It is just another day !!! All these flowers, candy, teddy bears etc are items shop keepers use in order to make money as unsuspecting fools fall for them .....

But then another voice in my head asks me "why are you being such a cynic ? So what if some people want to celebrate one day in a year to make their loved ones feel extra special ? Are you against it because grapes are sour ?" ... And I start to think .... Why am I being so negative towards this day ....
Is it because I don't get anything ? Nah, that can't be the reason ....
Is it because it unnecessarily makes one want something ? Maybe .....
Is it because this particular day fills one up with hope and then in case that image in the person's head doesn't happen, then that person's heart is crushed ? Yes .... That is what it is is what it is ....

I mean ... Think about it .... You get your hopes up, thinking that your special someone will do something for you ... Or you have done something for that special someone .... But then due to circumstances, nothing works out .... You are crushed, right ? I mean, if this were any other day, you wouldn't be so bothered ... But then, because it is Feb 14th, you're terribly upset !

Now, about being single ... Same scenario as mentioned earlier ... All the planning .... And then, it doesn't work out .... Now, if you had been single, you wouldn't have planned in the first place !! :D You would have chilled out ... No expectations to get drowned !!! Being single on such a hyped up day would be soooooo relaxing ... Tension free ..... Might as well not plan and not be disappointed, right ?

Which ever way you look at it .... You don't need one day in a year to express your love ... But then, because there is such a special day in the calendar, you can't help but get your hopes up :)
*sigh* ... Matters of the heart, I tell you .... Much tooooo complicated !

Guess who's back !!!

hahahahahaah !!! I have no frikkin' clue what to write about ... but thought that it is about time that i come back to life !! :)
am sure the two people who follow my blog will be more than pleased :)
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--watch this space for more :P

Potty Thoughts

Have you ever sat in the jon, and thought about stuff? Bet you have :P
Well, these thoughts always seem to plague my mind, even if I'm not on the pot :D

Potty Thought #1 : How do archaeologists find stuff buried deep underground?

Well, doesn't it bother you that people are always excavating and finding buried treasure? I mean, where does the earth come from to bury stuff underground?
Is the earth's diameter constantly increasing? Seems to me as though it is. See, if something gets buried, then technically the level of the ground over there would have risen over time? So that means mud/earth has been deposited over there? Which implies that there should be a cavity somewhere (WHICH DOESN'T EXIST!!!)
So, my funda is that the earth's diameter is increasing. Else, the mountains should have started shrinking in height (if its all the silt that is getting deposited - which aint happening either) .....

Potty Thought #2 : Gay couples symbolise true love

Have you ever thought about it - why do people fall in love with members of the opposite sex? Yeah, you might say it's for the attention, the love, the comfort, the faith etc etc etc. But then, don't you get that from friends? Family? The only reason I can see as to why people get into relationships with members of the opposite sex is for the "action". I mean... Come on, think about it. Your significant other has "parts" you dont have, which makes it all the more interesting and "nice". But on a more serious note, gay couples are in it out of pure love. Lust is not the driving factor, unlike straight couples (as their partners have what they have). Now, why are do straight people get into a relationship? It's more out of lust. I mean, they get the love and attention and faith, trust blah blah from their folks/friends too. But the partner adds the 'zing' to the whole thing.

Think about it :)

You And I...

You sat away, lost in thought
I waited patiently, but troubled, for you.
Somehow seeing you worried made my heart reach out,
'Coz I didn't know if there was anything I could do.

I knew cascading thoughts besieged your mind,
I ached to look inside your head.
Help you sort out what it was that was eating you,
But I stayed away, as you had asked, instead.

And then you took my hand in yours,
My heart clenched several times.
For in your eyes there was warmth and understanding,
Made me want to write prose and rhymes.

We've had some good times together,
Laughing and talking, seems like time stood still.
Felt like we've known each other forever,
Every void, complementing me, you've seemed to fill.

The other day you looked all serious,
You held my hand in yours.
I smiled, as I usually do, when you did so,
Always reminded me of a walk along the sea shores.

A ring you slipped onto my finger,
Time stood still,a moment of pure rapture.
Ecstasy had no limits for me then,
For my heart, body and soul you had captured.

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Blank... Blank blank blank blank blank! That's exactly what's on my head right now!!

Arbit thoughts are hovering around here n there, and none seem to materialise! Sometimes you just feel like doing absolutely nothing! And yet that's the time you wish you were occupied, had tonnes and tonnes of things to do.. So much that you didn't have time to message/mail or even answer your phone!
And the exact opposite happens when you do have something to do! That's when all you feel like doing is wasting time and doing absolutely nothing :D

It's fun trying to cheer someone up... And you feel all the more special if it works.. And it's probably the best and nicest feeling in the world when you are cheered up by someone :)

I got a cute little hamster for my birthday... One tiny, cute, furry lil' thing :D I've named him Fuzzy as he looks like one fuzz ball :D I can't believe someone would actually gift me a pet on my birthday.. It's probably the best, and the most different gift ever :)

Blah! :)

Emotions..

Hmmm.. Sometimes I wonder... What is affection.. Is it a feeling/emotion reserved for relatives? family? friends? loved ones? Is it similar to love?
When do you say you are attached to someone? When you worry about them? About their safety? When you wait for their message/call saying that they have reached home safely?
Or is it when you end up loving their family members? Asking about their well being? Whether they are fine?
Or is it a combination of all these emotions, feeling, and reasons for concern?

Sometimes I also wonder what does it mean to love someone... Does it mean thinking about them (in a not so obsessive way)?

What does it mean to think about your friends, who aren't with you? Friends who are half way across the world? Friends who live where you used to live? Friends you grew up with?

How about folks? You live away from your parents.. Think about them every now and then... Siblings.. Cousins, who are like the best friends you could ever have.. :) Cousins with whom you can talk about anything under the sun :) Cousins who you know will not judge you no matter what.. Cousins who are like the best friends you could have ever asked for..

How about the person you love? The person you hope to end up spending the rest of your life with? The person for whom you are ready to do almost anything, in order to keep them happy and to see them smile? The person who's happiness takes precedence over your's :) The person whom when you're with, you don't realise how time flies! The person with whom you have tonnes of fun, get along with their friends, and who's friends actually like you!! :)

Emotions come in varying degrees. I've chosen to think only about the nice ones :)
(might go to the darker side when my mood isn't this rosy :P)