Two minds..

There are times when you really want something, really want it bad... But then you aren't able to do anything about it, rather you shouldn't as its a waste of time when u think about it practically and not emotionally.... Its frustrating, right?

You know that without it, everything you're doing seems to be incomplete, yet at the same time you know that it isn't that big a deal.. The irony of the situation is, on one hand, almost makes you want to laugh at your own stupidity and your need for that 'thing'.. However on the other hand you're shocked at your loose control over your emotions and you know that you're wasting precious time thinking about it..

Why do we have these exasperating decisions to make? Why is it that we are unable to come to a decisive conclusion about where we should channelise our energy and thoughts? Frustration builds, over the fact that we need the 'thing', and over the fact that we cant control or stop that thinking..

What should one do about it? Which out of the two minds is the right one?



p.s.: I have often wondered about what I should think about... Should I think about the 'thing' or not? I know for sure that if i think about the 'thing', I'll curse myself not being able to stop thinking about it. If i try not to think about it, i cant help but think.. See ( first out of the two thoughts ), if I dont want to think about the 'thing', one half of my head will be telling me " the 'thing'.. the 'thing' ", and the other half, " do not think about the 'thing' ".. And at the same time ( second of the two thoughts ) if I want to think about the 'thing', I know I shouldn't be thinking about it as I know its pointless.. Its confusing, really... I'm in two minds over the two minds I was in, initially...

And i apologise for confusing the crap out of you..

Why is it such a big deal....

Is it necessary that every single action of our's be judged? Everything we do.. Right from typing out a simple mail to what we wear... From the books you read to the people you talk to... From what you say to what you think...
Why?
Why is it that being average just isn't good enough? Not everyone is born a genius, and not everyone who tries to become one becomes.Several people i know are 'below average', but they matter a hell lot to me. Its whats inside you that matters. Its whats in your heart that finally counts. Why is it such a big deal if one uses cliches?
Right now all of you reading this will be scrutinising the English, grammar, spellings, sentence construction of this blog. Gosh, just let it be. You do not judge a person by what they say or write.. There's more to a human being than all that. Why judge them?
Why is one judged when they speak whats on their mind? When they want to talk to someone who matters to them? Why is it such a big deal when one is selfish once in a while?
Why is it such a big deal if i am contradicting myself in everything that i am saying?... It isn't that big a deal.. really, it isn't....