What was I thinking?......

Look at me,
I've lost the ability to judge right from wrong...
Please show me the right way,
Teach me where to draw the line, real hard and strong...

I didn't realise I what I was doing,
I didnt pause to think and wonder why...
I was so caught up in feeling good,
I never realised I was making someone cry...

Right now I'm feeling lost and empty inside;
I feel like a cold shell that has no emotion...
I don't think I deserve what I have,
My life feels like it's going in slow motion...

I can't seem to digest why I did what I did;
Now when I recollect, it feels so not like me...
What posessed me into doing it ,
I know I won't be able to answer this completely...

Back then I wasn't thinking,
I didn't even pay attention to the sin I was committing...
I was nodding and agreeing,
Not realising that I should instead be quitting...

You know what I've realise now,
You don't need to look any further for a complete loser...
If you want to find someone who has been cheap and crappy twice,
Just look at me - the greatest 'Faith, Love and Trust Abuser'....